(Story originally appeared on PEOPLE.com on Wednesday, Nov. 8, 2016.)
Jana Kramer was still in shock after learning that her husband of 11 months, Michael Caussin, allegedly had a drug problem that was spiraling out of control. So much so that it took her until Thanksgiving Day to find a way to spend the holiday with her two children.
“I really don’t want to spend Thanksgiving this year without my kids,” Kramer told PEOPLE. “So I’m going to fly home and bring the love and happiness that we have here and have the whole day with them. And every day until we are back together.”
The 33-year-old “I Got the Boy” singer found out last week that her husband was arrested after he fell asleep in his car with a one-year-old and 4-year-old in the backseat and allegedly had needle marks on his arm. In addition, he was charged with possessing methamphetamine, and having more than 2.5 grams of heroin.
Kramer, who canceled her Friday concert in Tempe, Arizona, was set to perform Saturday at the ABC Riverwalk Music Festival.
“I feel sick,” she said. “I’m in shock. I can’t believe it happened.”
Cussin, 26, has been released on $10,000 bail and pleaded not guilty to the felony charges on Monday, with his lawyer saying that his client was intoxicated and had a drug problem. Kramer allegedly knew about her husband’s problem, but decided not to confront him about it.
“He still didn’t admit that he was on drugs,” Kramer said. “I didn’t want him to put the kids in harm’s way.”
Kramer also explained that she has already had many discussions with her oldest son Jace, 10, about his father’s arrest.
“I’ve told my son, ‘Jace, every situation is different. We went through a pretty tough time with Mike.’ This is another one of those incidents,” she said. “I’m sure it’s going to be hard for him, but he was in a stable environment. I feel like this is one of those moments that I need to make sure that he knows that you can get better.”
Kramer said that she hopes that her custody battle with Caussin won’t distract Jace from pursuing his dream to play football.
“It’s hard for me when I see some young people saying they can’t see the NFL because their parents are divorced. I’m just so thankful that Jace is so driven. He loves football. He’s such a young athlete that I’m just so happy that he’s so grounded and he’s still so happy about his life,” she said. “And when things happen like this, it doesn’t take away from his perspective.”
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Kramer and Caussin tied the knot in an intimate ceremony in July 2014 in Paris, and welcomed twin sons Jolie and Jace on Nov. 6, 2015.
“We had a really good experience raising the kids,” Kramer said of her marriage. “I hope for the two of us that we would be able to try to fix it. That’s my personal wish, that we could be together again.”
For now, Kramer will spend the holiday weekend with her two kids.
“My heart hurts that I don’t have them here with me for Thanksgiving,” she said. “But also, I feel like God is taking my family through a rough time together and putting us in this situation where we can be together even more.”
Reporting by Nicholas White